I realized in that early healing that I had no idea I was a sensitive empath who was living in my head and ignoring my body and trauma. Energy work helped me reconnect mind and body. My practitioner taught me how to stop feeling like a brain on a stick--to bring my awareness back in to my body. Amazed with the process, I took my Reiki Level 1 course, and began doing energy work on myself, often falling asleep while giving my belly reiki to soothe my IBS.
Fast forward twenty years and I find myself on the other side of my third major breakdown/awakening, this one brought about by the pandemic (second one happened in my early 30s, totally destroyed me yet again, and helped me leave academia and begin my vocation as a ceremony guide). In autumn 2022 I had my first initiation dream into a new calling. I’ve always been an active dreamer, but this was one of those BIG dreams. In the dream I met this cottage core dead girl who led me away from a busy, gross, commercialized beach, and instructed me to cross the fence in the cemetery, and begin a new path up the big hill to a bluff at the top, where I’d find a second fence to cross and enter another part of the cemetery. Whoa, okay, new path. I had several more BIG dreams over the next few months clarifying that I was being called into healing work—I dreamed I was a healer’s apprentice, dreamed of a dying girl asking me to do reiki on her, among others. Then, just in case I wasn’t taking Spirit’s guidance seriously, I had a series of a few accidents including my first car crash ever, and briefly but intensely throwing my back out. Spirit essentially lovingly slapped me upside the head. So I enrolled in Reiki Level 2, 20 years after taking level one.
Overwhelmed by this new invitation I called up several healers, panicked, looking for guidance as I faced all sorts of imposter syndrome “how could I possibly do healing work?” worries. One of them was that very first energy practitioner/spiritual guide I saw in my 20s. She generously offered to step in as my mentor, and in a beautiful full-circle moment, gifted me with her treatment table (now that she was doing a different kind of healing work). So now one of the treatment tables I’ll be using is the same one I’ve had dozens of sessions on over the last couple of decades. The one where I first stepped out on to a healing path. Talk about feeling like I’m where I’m supposed to be!
So, I feel I’ve been called by Spirit in to this work. Energy work will sit alongside and weave in to my ceremony offerings. I’ll dedicate one day a week, on Wednesdays, to Reiki sessions. I’m excited and nervous, as is to be expected when starting something new. I can see how I’ve done enough of my own healing work (not that I’m finished!), and enough of my own energy cultivation, that I can begin to hold space for others. I’m grateful for the mind/body/spirit healing and support of many talented practitioners of varying modalities I’ve worked with one on one, several generous teachers I’ve learned from, and my loving ancestors and spiritual guides.
The times feel urgent, and each of us needs to shine our fierce light so that we can heal collectively, and create a world guided by principles of peace, justice and compassion. It’s an honour to be asked to help others shine. You are a fierce light my friend, and we need you now. The only way we’ll get where we’re going is together.
If you feel called to work together, book in an in-person (in Guelph, masks required) or distance energy work session. If you want to start with a vibe check, book in for a free 15 minute video or phone chat to see if we’re a good fit and ask any questions you have.
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